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It has been five years since CJ went on ahead to the afterlife. I have learned over the past years, that there are days that will always...

At CJ's celebration of life, I shared three pieces of advice that he had given to me. As the five year anniversary has come and gone, I...

Each day I wake up and I think of CJ. Each day I travel this grief journey and I think of CJ. Each day I live as best I can, and I...

A Robin nests at my front door each year. This year I watched her raise three sets of babies. My front door was off limits but I loved...

When someone loses a loved one, they look for signs of their continue presence. History is full of examples of items and animals we...

A few days ago, I had to go out to do some shopping. As I was walking into the store, I heard a person cry out. It was the sound of CJ's...

Soon after I lost CJ I began seeing a therapist. She helped me with so many things. One very important piece of advice she gave me was...

I was a mother. I am a mother. Now I am also a bereaved mother. That will never change. To learn to live like this I had to find balance....

Before I lost CJ I was plagued with phobias. With the lose of CJ, the phobias subsided. I am free of them for the most part and feel like...

This weekend the Diving Club where CJ grew up hosted a meet. I have been slowly rejoining these events and bringing diving into my life...

When we face adversity in life we are often told, that to manage our situation we need to remember that there are others out there who...

Losing CJ has challenged my religious faith. I was raised Catholic and oh how Catholic we were. Church every Sunday, ceremonies for all...

When I was growing up Christmas was extremely important in so many ways. I was raised in a strong Catholic home. Everything about the...

In my search to stay connected to CJ, I have tried a number of avenues. Some of those avenues took me to explore the spiritual world...

I just finished watching the women's 3 metre synchro and I am so proud of our Canadian Women for their silver win. Diving will always...

They say that a picture is worth a thousand words, but is it? I was looking at my posts on social media and noticed something. For the...

Before CJ passed away I was changing. My life was changing, my priorities changing. CJ would always be my son, but my job as a Mother was...

After losing CJ, something odd happened. I found that the places that I shared with CJ became either a connection or a painful reminder...

In writing this post I changed the title a number of times. Depending on how I was feeling the title was going to be "The 5 stages of...

Every day I wake up, I think about my son. Every 12th of the month I wake up and think about the lose of my son. Its not something I can...