Hearing Your Voice Just One More Time

A few days ago, I had to go out to do some shopping.

As I was walking into the store, I heard a person cry out. It was the sound of CJ's voice calling me "Mum" it was exactly the way he use to say it. The tone, the timber of his voice, just exactly the same.

I turned at the sound and looked around--- for him.

For a single heart beat, not even a full second, I forgot. I forgot he was gone. I heard his voice and for that Nano-second he was here again.

I shook my head and walked into the store but then I just stood there. The clerk asked if she could help me but I just stared at her, trying to process what had happened.

I was so confused. I left the store soon after and began crying. I had to sit in the car, trying to sort out my feelings. It was exactly the way he said it.

Minutes later, I couldn't remember exactly how it sounded. I couldn't recreate it in my head and it hurt so much - it felt like losing him again.

It took me a couple of days, to process. I began to see what happened as a gift.

I believe in signs and see them all the time. I have heard CJ in my head and my heart. And now I had been given the gift of hearing his voice for just that one moment, again.

I had heard his voice.

I heard him speak to me. "Mum" not "Mom" but "Mum".

Once I accepted it, it was like a door opened in my head. I could hear him say it now in my head. "Mum".

I will cherish that nano-second, and believe that for that one moment, the curtain between here and the after world lifted and my son reached out and spoke to me.

"Mum"