Balance on this Journey

I was a mother. I am a mother. Now I am also a bereaved mother.

That will never change.

To learn to live like this I had to find balance.

There is balance all around us.

In Nature we see balance. The balance between the light and the dark, the right and the wrong, the good and the evil.

I balance the past, present and future. I keep CJ in my heart by looking to the past. I nurture relationships now to allow me to live in the present. I carefully plan the future, intertwined with CJ memories I don’t look too far, so that the passage of time doesn’t overwhelm me.

I balance the emotional, the mental and the physical. I allow my emotion, my grief, to be felt each day. I practice self care to keep my mental well being. When those two are in balance, it’s easier to be physically okay. Not perfect.. but okay.

I balance the here with the hereafter. I live here now, enjoying friends and family, loving any mention of CJ, balanced with the complete faith that he exists in the hereafter, and I will see him again.

The balance,is fragile. It needs constant attention and care. I work hard to maintain that balance, because in that balance, is CJ