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Rejecting the Darkness
Before I lost CJ I was plagued with phobias. With the lose of CJ, the phobias subsided. I am free of them for the most part and feel like...
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May 31, 20232 min read


A Reflection of What Was
This weekend the Diving Club where CJ grew up hosted a meet. I have been slowly rejoining these events and bringing diving into my life...
janicemoore93150
May 21, 20231 min read
Point of View
When we face adversity in life we are often told, that to manage our situation we need to remember that there are others out there who...
janicemoore93150
Sep 22, 20223 min read


Absolute Faith
Losing CJ has challenged my religious faith. I was raised Catholic and oh how Catholic we were. Church every Sunday, ceremonies for all...
janicemoore93150
Jan 15, 20222 min read


Merry Christmas
When I was growing up Christmas was extremely important in so many ways. I was raised in a strong Catholic home. Everything about the...
janicemoore93150
Dec 26, 20213 min read


I Finally Understand the Music
In my search to stay connected to CJ, I have tried a number of avenues. Some of those avenues took me to explore the spiritual world...
janicemoore93150
Nov 20, 20212 min read


My Emotions are Conflicted but My Heart is Not.
I just finished watching the women's 3 metre synchro and I am so proud of our Canadian Women for their silver win. Diving will always...
janicemoore93150
Jul 25, 20212 min read


Pictures
They say that a picture is worth a thousand words, but is it? I was looking at my posts on social media and noticed something. For the...
janicemoore93150
Jul 14, 20212 min read


Does Anyone Know What the Future Holds
Before CJ passed away I was changing. My life was changing, my priorities changing. CJ would always be my son, but my job as a Mother was...
janicemoore93150
May 31, 20213 min read


Connection and Discord
After losing CJ, something odd happened. I found that the places that I shared with CJ became either a connection or a painful reminder...
janicemoore93150
Apr 27, 20212 min read


Five Stages of Grief are a Dangerous Myth
In writing this post I changed the title a number of times. Depending on how I was feeling the title was going to be "The 5 stages of...
janicemoore93150
Apr 10, 20213 min read
Honouring the Loss - Counting the Days
Every day I wake up, I think about my son. Every 12th of the month I wake up and think about the lose of my son. Its not something I can...
janicemoore93150
Mar 12, 20212 min read


Ghost of Christmas Past
Those walking a grief journey know that each occasion, each anniversary, each milestone brings decisions with it. Do we pretend these...
janicemoore93150
Dec 3, 20202 min read


A Beautiful Dream Message
Every day I wake to the pain of missing CJ, and remembering he is gone. Every night I go to sleep and pray that I will see him in my...
janicemoore93150
Nov 29, 20202 min read


The Changes In The Third Year
Iwant you to know that I don't tell my story to elicit sympathy. I tell my story so that you know that I am walking this path, and I have...
janicemoore93150
Nov 22, 20202 min read


The Gentle Season Of Fall
Today at 9:31 a.m. we in the western hemisphere stepped into Fall. We have already felt the affects over the past days with cooler...
janicemoore93150
Sep 22, 20203 min read


Connections
As the days grow closer to when I lost CJ, I have a need to keep his memory alive, to keep his spirit alive. This weekend we did just...
janicemoore93150
Aug 9, 20202 min read


Frozen in Time
We are living in historic times. Unprecedented decisions have been made on a daily basis, almost faster than we can process the...
janicemoore93150
Jul 20, 20203 min read


Juxtaposition- Living in Two Worlds
The human race is living in unprecedented times. We are being asked to narrow our world more and more each day. Every day, we wake up to...
janicemoore93150
Apr 7, 20203 min read


Saying Good-Bye
In November I decided it was time to move. A month later I put an offer in on a house and three weeks later took possession of my new...
janicemoore93150
Mar 9, 20202 min read
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