3 Months

3 months. 92 days. 132,480 minutes. 7,948,800 seconds.

An eternity already. And yet sometimes it feels like just yesterday.

Usually I try so hard on Facebook to be gentle and uplifting and to help others remember. But not today.

Today is hard. Today I am not okay. Today I am grieving.

It is 3 months since I lost my heart, my soul, my light. Our light.

It is okay to not be okay. It is okay to cry, and scream at the universe for this terrible injustice.

As a society we so want others who are grieving to get better. We are taught that from a young age, that negative is bad. But it’s not. It’s not bad.

Our level of grieving is measured only by the level of love that came before. There are many out there who loved CJ with an abundance and we are grieving.

So grieve. Miss him. Get mad at the universe for taking this beautiful man too soon.

Because today is 7,948,800 seconds. And we have a lifetime more to endure without him.